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after having my first son 4 years ago i never in my wildest dreams i thiught i would get PND, it all started about a week after i came home, i was very tierd & too many people coming & going, especially my mother in law & her family i was so anxious for him to sleep that i didnt want anybody picking him up & or making a sound, i couldnt drive as i had a c section so i was stuck to the house, my fiancee & i argues more & more & i just sunk into depression. i wanted to be with my son every day, but the mother in law who i cared so much about before turned into my worst nightmare, we were so close but i just gre to hate her more & more. I soon had to go back to work, my fiancee was made redundant so he stayed at home then once he found work months later & my mum, mum in law & dad in law looked after him, but i was torturing myself everyday with little things she'd say or do & i got myself so wound up & upset. We went on a family holiday to ireland with his family & my son didnt want me anywhere near him, just her, & that was the last straw, we came back & me & my fiancee argued that i made her so uncomfortable the whole holiday & if it didnt change he'd leave me, but i was so angry with her everyday i found is too hard to change, so i went to the doctors where she prescribed me tablets, i confronted my mum in law where i tried to tell her how i feel but its a bit hard to say look i hate you, i did get better eventually but it will never be the same between us, ive recently given birth to our second son & touch wood the same old feeling have not come back, & im not on the tablets, but i have days where the kids will wind me up or the mum in law will say something, but i try to take it in my stride.