Ddepression

after having my first son 4 years ago i never in my wildest dreams i thiught i would get PND, it all started about a week after i came home, i was very tierd & too many people coming & going, especially my mother in law & her family i was so anxious for him to sleep that i didnt want anybody picking him up & or making a sound, i couldnt drive as i had a c section so i was stuck to the house, my fiancee & i argues more & more & i just sunk into depression. i wanted to be with my son every day, but the mother in law who i cared so much about before turned into my worst nightmare, we were so close but i just gre to hate her more & more. I soon had to go back to work, my fiancee was made redundant so he stayed at home then once he found work months later & my mum, mum in law & dad in law looked after him, but i was torturing myself everyday with little things she'd say or do & i got myself so wound up & upset. We went on a family holiday to ireland with his family & my son didnt want me anywhere near him, just her, & that was the last straw, we came back & me & my fiancee argued that i made her so uncomfortable the whole holiday & if it didnt change he'd leave me, but i was so angry with her everyday i found is too hard to change, so i went to the doctors where she prescribed me tablets, i confronted my mum in law where i tried to tell her how i feel but its a bit hard to say look i hate you, i did get better eventually but it will never be the same between us, ive recently given birth to our second son & touch wood the same old feeling have not come back, & im not on the tablets, but i have days where the kids will wind me up or the mum in law will say something, but i try to take it in my stride.

wedding anniversaries

its my brothers wedding anniversary today but im guilty to say i never send them a card, im not married myself yet but dont hink id be too bothered if my family didnt get me a card

got a new buggy board

got a new buggy board the other day, & i did a trail run up school with my 4 month year old & 4 year old, took me about 20mins to walk bout a mile but i was knackered but it was a lovely morning & shouldve took a drink cos i was very thirsty by the time i got there, suffering this morning as i got a sore throat. The whole experience wasnt too bad but im sure i havent got it fixed properly & my son keeps knocking his head inbetween the handle bars & because my other son is so small still it keeps flipping back, i know i can get buggy weights but thats more money again, i wonder if i should just put a couple of tins of baked beans in the basket below the buggy! i think i should try & save petrol by doing this in the summer & help me get rid of my mummy tummy!! will probably be on sale on ebay soon no doubt!!

problems with cardiff city v blackpool wmbley final tickets?

im writing this blog as i await our tickets for saturdays wembley final game, mr postman is suppose to be delivering them by recorded delivery, so ive been ordered to stay in untill then, but alot of peeps have problems of them not turning or not the right amount of tickets int he envelope, should be washing the car but its raining